Today was the second day of winter, December 22nd, 2020. Yesterday, the Winter Solstice, also the shortest day of the year was when two planets (Jupiter and Saturn) appear closer than it has ever been since 800 years ago. It is known as “The Star of Bethlehem” (aka “The Great Conjunction” – During the 2020 great conjunction, the two planets were separated in the sky by 6 arcminutes at their closest point, which was the closest distance between the two planets since 1623).
When I was a very young girl my dream was to be an astronaut. In 2nd grade, during class, I stared out the window and imagined being in space, while the teacher’s voice droned on like an unidentified buzz. I looked towards the azure and wondered what’s out there? and where and how do I fit in in this enormous puzzle?
Funny, many many decades later, I am still the same in my thinking, though the desire to be an astronaut has long passed. What do I dream and hope for now? I am at the arc in my life, the shooting star no more, and the trajectory is the downward bend. This is a combination of losing momentum and gravity pulling my mass towards the center of the earth.
This is life. Decay is inevitable. I accept… though I still struggle. Surrender is not easy when I remember how I used to climb tall mountains, and ran down the trail fast – hopped from rock to rock, light on my feet and my shirt drenched from clean sweat. These days, I sit in front of a laptop with a tape over the camera, hiding from unknown intruders while my fingers hop over letters and special characters that decorate virtual documents and pages.
One definition of life is a measurement of time. In the obit section, a name is listed with a date of birth and a date of death. There was a beginning and then an end. Between the bookends describes what the person did and who was left behind.
Imagine a straight beam of light shooting out of a super giant star, like “Deneb” (10 to the 5th degree in solar units luminosity). Its light has been traveling for several light years to reach our eyes. One day, the bright light of “Deneb” will fade and die. But we wouldn’t know this in our human life, because the light reaching us now is a view of the past. “When we look out across the Universe, we’re also peering back in time.” – Ethen Siegel, Forbes https://www.forbes.com/sites/startswithabang/2020/09/07/are-any-stars-visible-in-the-night-sky-already-dead/?sh=287b5f77809f
As a kid looking towards the stars I was seeing myself but not recognizing myself. I was searching for the self, when I already am the self. I see therefore I am.
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And so many of us are glad that you are you, Analyn…
Hugs and Merry Christmas to you, too 🙂 XOXO
Beautiful post, thank you!
Merry Christmas Nancy. Thank you for reading and commenting :-). xoxo.
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